today, more than yesterday...

sounds dramatic, but 100% true:
i am happy to be alive.

generic?  maybe.
precise?  exactly.

almost died today on the drive home from mini-me's orthodontic appointment.
and not in a "that jerk just cut me off and almost ran me off the road" kinda way. 

had just dropped her back at school.  pulled out on the highway.  had accelerated up around 40 mph and was increasing speed, when instead of hitting the button on my bluetooth to end a call....
i slammed my transmission in reverse.

don't know why.
i'm normally a great driver.
i can count every traffic ticket i've received in my life, still, on one hand. 

it was a "put the milk away in the cupboard instead of the fridge" sort of freakish moment.

my body aches from my car's rough jerking towards the center median & my attempts at correction. 
my nerves are still firing at the sensation of tires releasing pavement, repeatedly in the same second. 
my head's still pounding from the adrenaline....and its been 2 hours since it all happened.

luckily, Providence had His hand in it, and my engine cut out as it should have....and my vehicle didn't roll....and there was no traffic bearing down on me yet, thanks to the red light in my rear-view mirror.

at least my breathing's back to normal.

it was more than a wake-up call.
it's a gratitude call.

i am grateful to still be here for my daughter.... to still be here for my husband.... to still be here for my calling.... for all the things i still have to take care of at the end of the day....

there's still so much i have to do.

today i am happy to be alive.

luv u.  ::hugs::